So I really need to do this. I need to get a lot of things of my mind. I'm not going to say names because I really don't think it's necessary. You'll know who you are.
~This is just stupid. I hate not seeing you. I hate not knowing what you're up to. I hate not knowing how you are with your son. I hate that all I hear about is your parties and not your character. I hate that everyone I talk to expects that I still talk to you on a day to day basis and yet last time we talked on the phone for more than 2 minutes was freshmen year. I hate that you were the reason I loved NW and you left me not even 2 months into it. I know you didn't leave me personally, but it sure felt like it. I had become reliant on you and then for you to walk up one day to tell me you were leaving was the worst feeling of loss I have yet experienced. This whole thing sucks and it's stupid. I don't know what else to say. You definately know more about me than anyone can even hope to learn. I just feel like you've forgottten about me but somehow you're still my favorite thing about the west coast.
~I really dislike you. I really do. You were the first person to completely just betray every ounce of trust I put in you. I used to sit at home and make plans about us and how fun it would be once we both had cars and how we were supposed to live a happily ever after. Although you were the one that hurt me, somehow you blame this all on me and how dramatic I am. I guess I'm the dramatic one when you made a xanga when we were dating about how hot and perfect another girl was who happened to be my friend. Whatever. I don't know why I give you the time of day but somehow I want to know you're okay. I guess it just shows I'm the bigger person but I really wish you could be a man every once in a while and ask how I'm doing. It just makes me sad to think what a waste of energy we were and it makes me even sadder to think of how much more energy I've wasted.
~I think our friendship is a great laugh. Mainly cause you completely ditched me for your girlfriend who treats you like shit. I guess that's what you deserve for treating me and my other best friend like shit for about 2 years but whatever. It'll be fun seeing you at our high school reunion as a washed up Wal-Mart employee because that's exactly where you are headed if you don't get your damn priforities straight. I'd try to knock some sense into you but you'd just say "shut up mayra you don't know what you're talking about!" it's even funnier cause i remember last year we would talk almost every night about how much harder we were going to try junior year because we wanted to go somewhere in life. At least I'm keeping up my end of the deal and I'm not an alcoholic like you. At least I try to call you to talk, rather than to try to get into your pants like you do to me. I hate that you're so cocky you think you could get me to do anything with you. That one kiss was seriously more than enough to make me regret even meeting you. The only reason I think about you is to make me feel better about myself. Pathetic but true. You never deserved me.
~You are by far the best thing to come out of Shawnee Mission North. I love growing and just being with you and having you understand. You are my confidante and I love that about you. I love that instead of gettind mad at me you talk to me about whatever's on your mind. I love that you care and you call or text me just to tell me to have a great day. I love that you're all about me and making sure I'm content and happy. I love you. I could not ask for a more devoted caring person.
~My lord do I miss you. It is amazing to think I've hung out with you a couple of times but I still consider you my best friend at that school and you are an absolutely wonderful person. I love that you have always been there for me. You have never ever been mad at me. Sometimes when I think about how I never hang out with you I feel super guilty although it's my dad's fault. It just always sits in the back of my head that you have been one of the most awesome friends I've ever had yet I always fail to make an effort after my dad says "no." I wish you went to North. I wish I saw you more than once every 6 months..Thank you for being nothing but wonderful to me and always caring. I love you. Youuu are my sunshine..my only sunshinne. Ha.
~SO I lied. I said I wasn't going to write about you, because let's face it I could go on forever but I'm going to anyway. Thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for always listening. Thank you for being there when I came home every day in middle school crying my eyes out. Thank you for all the times you have called me even though I never answer. Thank you for always making things seem better. Thank you for always making me laugh about being mexican. Thank you for threatning to kick my ass if I ever got with you know who because I know if you hadn't I would have. Thank you for comforting me about the family situation. Thank you for coming with me to Sam's Club because that's the only way we get to hang out. Thank you for making me feel like I am a good person. Thank you for always being on my side. Thank you for being my friend after 7 years of annoying me. Thank you for never letting things get weird. Thank you for always being the first to apologize when we fight. Thank you for all the times that we've stayed up talking about life and love. Thank you for always defending me agaisnt others. Thank you for being the only one from NW who has kept his promise to not forget me. Thank you for finally realizing she wasn't the one for you. Thank you for not getting too mad when I talk to your parents. Thank you for telling me when I'm being a slut and need to stop. Thank you for always supporting my decisions even if you know they aren't the best. Thank you for always being honest. Thank you for always telling me secrets you're not supposed to tell. Thank you for making me realize girls will be bitches but I always have you. Thank you for absolutely everything. The only reason I'm stopping typing is because my left wrist hurts. I love you and no one will ever take your place.
I'll keep updating this as I need to vent more. | 
